All that I am is for You my Saviour
I live by Your word and surrender to You
Here where I stand in this moment
Father, my spirit has been renewed
I surrender to You

I'm grateful for Father. That song says it all for me now where I am. A road of prideful reason leads me nowhere. Spirit-led, that's where I must go.

I surrender to You
To YOU!

“No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.”
- Jesus

love note

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. ------- Proverbs 4:23

As already claimed as the highest discipline that we should have and practise, I find myself reminding myself and others to do this.

Why do I, in the first place, get upset over something by only what I perceive it to be? Feeling upset leads to sadness, feelings of disappointment and destitution, to anger, to bitterness, and so and so forth.

Why do we fall into sin by wanting our own way?

Why do we allow ourselves to be in situations where temptations lurk at every turn?

Because we don't do what the above says!

Guarding the heart means starting right from the innermost parts of your soul, your emotions. Seek and let godly counsel guide you through, with the peace of God if you know it. If not, ask for it to be given to you when you do the right thing, you'll recognise it soon.
When you guard inwardly, you guard outwardly as well. Both are in tandem with each other. Do the opposite of what you'd do. Don't put yourself in situations you cannot handle.

I'm writing this in hope that it'll apply to all situations, whatever you might be in, and to remind myself as well. Guard your heart for what? You might ask. Besides, isn't being true to yourself the best thing to do for you and others? You're right, but is your true self pleasing to God, the one who loves you unconditionally, who made you and holds your destiny? And therefore will it help you or others if it ain't right to the King?

Those are questions I ask myself when I'm in there, just something to keep us all in check, like I told someone today. And all I want is for us His bride and army to live right, start living right, learn to live right.

Rebellion ain't cool. It's plain crass. So let's live it up guys! I really mean this!

I Believe

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

And I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands


I don't want to have unbelief in my heart. That was the very thing that hindered the Jews from coming to Jesus. There may still be unbelief lurking in us today. Why? Because there is still hesitation in obeying Him. There is still fear of disappointment, of dying, of the devil. I personally have areas where I have to fall upon trust in Him. When I'm sick, I trust in sleep and water more than His hand. Why is my first reaction to sleep more? Why don't I arise in worship of Him? Why don't I declare His healing first and move on from there? I wait for the sickness to begin challenging me to a level that I think I may need help soon then I ask for healing.

Jesus, help my unbelief!

Jesus loved to be among those who believed. He would exclaim when affirming them that they have great faith. He would go in to their houses. And then there were some who did not enter His rest due to their unbelief, so after 40 years in the wilderness, they still did not enter the Promised Land. This 40-day fast is still ongoing. When this period ends, may I emerge with a glorious new and changed faith in God, believing in Him and walking steadfast in the Spirit. I believe you will too.

Fasting time!!! I've never been excited about fasting like that before. These days, instead of having my mind process information then proceeding to understanding in my heart, it's been the other way round. A different feel, yes, and i like it. What i know is the Holy Spirit is relaying things to my spirit and in this way, i agree with God much faster than the opposite. And truth transforms so it flows out of my behaviour. Fasting is a key discipline in making myself more spiritually aware. It starts here at least for me, and the shout will grow louder!

One thing i've been telling my JYC small group members is we have to know who we worship. Once we know Him by seeing even but a glimpse of His majesty, we are forever spoiled for the world. And then we'll never stop pursuing Him. I hope, and this is my prayer too for us all, that none of us will ever stop our pursuit of Him, Yahweh, our God.

Mr Faun as promised!

the "cast"
mr faun and dear little lucy

mr faun's biggest fan

"excuse me..."

the icy white witch and friends

Narnia was great. Watching it was such an enjoyment and i'd rather watch it 1000 times than Sex & the City. We have to be clear about what we watch because our minds retain images more ably and learn and remember faster than we think. Someone told me before that Sex & the City is actually pretty intellectual and relevant to society so i allowed myself to watch an episode one day. 5 minutes into the show and i was out. I told whoever i was watching with that it was rubbish. Choices really determine our character. No offence to people who like the series but you should seriously think twice before just going with the flow. Watch Narnia! War and courage and faith in the face of death, treachery and betrayal. My 2 cents. :)

Recent Highlights (and happy birthday May!)

May's birthday celebration at the Lau's place.
gracious of them to open their home to us.

the long walk to the Lau's was actually fun

Ruth's best attempt to look cool

Sunday School!

Ivan the Principal

i love this shot of Char

during my class when DM came to inspect.. haha.
super cute, look at Iggy's face. everyone looked the part!

At Cold Storage...
#1

#2

#3

#4

#5!

complete match of colours :)

mama's birthday 8th may

this little punk is my nephew

with jyc small group

haha Sam...

looking good eh

dance by Teens at YC Anniversary

way to go lynn, miao, bianca, may!

i was projectionist so that explains the view.
grabbed my cam for opportune shots

The thoughtfulness of a friend who's never quite that far,

though such sweet things ain't that hard for thinking up

and doing up from that certain kind nature - that heart

that always seeks to care an extra mile just to make you smile

and surely i did smile (and jumped! and somersaulted! right).

Thank you jo... :)

miss you too. and i shall stop being mushy.

You're... not good enough, not well-learned enough, not ready enough, not loving enough, not whole enough, not good-looking enough, not slim enough, not wise enough, not stable enough, not strong enough, not cool enough-
AH ENOUGH LA.

Don't fall for the silly old tricks.

But even if you do, keep standing up again.

An Invitation

Here's the deal: Who wants to conquer MacRitchie with me?

I'm itching for a 4km+ there. It's been a while since i ran in and around that forested area. That place holds special memories for me since my sec school days.

I'm a slow coach but I run with a consistent speed and sometimes sprint the last stretch just for a kick.

I won't give up unless under unforeseen circumstances such as major stomachache, cramps, etc., or unless you're suffering from boredom of RMM, Repetitive Muscular Motion.

I'd love your company if you'd choose me. *blink blink*

Am I your perfect date?



hahhaahha... can pass or not? I think i'm not too bad an advertiser. Practising to use persuasive language in one of my courses now. But really i mean it... haha, MacRitchie anyone?

Endlessly

Saviour of my soul
Lover of my life
I love You endlessly
Passion of my heart
Everything You are
I love You endlessly

With Your majesty here
I fall to my knees
I love You endlessly

With the beauty of Your son
I find myself undone
I love You endlessly

Just the verse and the chorus here. It's a simple pledge of love, don't you think? It's got a nice beat to it too, makes you wanna fling your hands up wide and skip a bit. He deserves our pure worship from the barest of our hearts!

Now i'd like to share something from His word that really watered my soul garden (hehe sounds like something else right?) this week. Hope it'll bless you too..

I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources He will give you mighty inner strength through His Holy Spirit. And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in Him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God's marvelous love.

And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should,
how wide, how long, how high, and how deep His love really is.

May you experience the love of Christ, though it is so great you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Ephesians 4:16-19

Though Paul was praying for the people of Ephesus, i included myself as i read it and received it. His prayer is still being answered by God today. So this is for all of us too. Paul is like a spiritual father to us. May you receive this prayer in your spirit. I want to sink in His love for there i will know Him. We shall know Him!

"Baby let's cruise away from here..."

You know that song? Gwyneth Paltrow sang it with some guy in the movie Duets. Don't remember much of the movie except this scene when she sang this song and sounded so good. Anyway that's not the point. I wanna tell you about my 2 nights on board SuperStar Virgo! Nothing exceptional about the ship or service there, not even the food, but my eyes were opened to how personal God is. Not to mention how beautiful and breathtaking He could be. Haha, He is.

The last time i went on board with my girlfriends, i took the time in the day and was awed by the sunlight creating flecks of silver on the waves and how fascinating to be running like you're running on water! This time i did that too but it was distracting as some people kept watching and someone even asked to run with me! Yikes. Too bad i had to reject 'cos i love my solitude too much. And so i did that at every interval i could and went as if to stealth mode when i went off to do some sun-tanning and jacuzzi, gym and free running and movie at night and night time in the room. OOOH at night the waters may look threatening when i look down from the 9th level, but it hides mystery beneath that i got so drawn to i had to remind myself not to think about "what if i suddenly fall into the water". And the sky was beautiful. All you could hear was the gentle slushing of waves and a pleasant silence. That's how God took my breath away in the night like never before.

I totally enjoyed myself with my mom and sis, totally. I was reluctant in the beginning to sit in for some entertainment performance by the crew on the first night but eventually i'm glad i joined in. And for all the meals we had and the Bingos we played (and won some) together, i secretly rejoice. hehe. It brought change to our relationship with one another. No stress, just relax and unafraid to laugh. I really wanted to laugh with them, and yes i did.

Thank God for everything. He's mending things. :)

capturing moments

here you go Miao, you asked for it *grin*

still one of our best sports. nice one ian!

courtesy of Miao.

gotcha Maymay :)

our modern Phantom of the Opera

Some classics...

enjoying it..

Have you heard God's voice recently? Have you heard Him say "I'm pleased with you"? When you make a right choice when you knew the contrary would displease Him, it makes all that difference in a day. When you make the wrong choice and trip over one of those devil traps, but go back to Him as soon as you're conscious of the mistake, He covers you with forgiveness and washes you guiltless. Have you heard Him whisper "I love you, child" lately?

When you don't hear Him, you don't feel a thing, not a trace of His presence or His grace, pause and search your heart, is He number one? Has something come in between? When you've experienced romance with Him, when all is well and you've been chasing Him, but He disappears for a while. Don't give up, He's watching if you'd come closer still. Till you're desperate.

We can spend all day at our computers, in our books, in bed, before the TV, with our close ones, but remember the One who gives and allows us all those, and love yourself, really love yourself, by spending time with Him.

He's saying...

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Proverbs 4:23

YIKES! It's been so long huh. GOOD NEWS: I have internet connection in the shop again!!!!!!!!!!!! YESH!! All thanks to GOD and Subway. Hahaha. I was just having a passing thought in my mind this morning: "I need to go online and check if i got my course".... "I wished i still had internet at work".
When i switched on my lappy just now, i was flipping through the shop's daily reports and a "dingdung" sound gave me a pleasant surprise. Oh my i was like "are you sure!!?" and started thanking God! Hahha yaaayyy... *beams*
I must say I had a really good 2007. All the ups and downs and plateaus made the year a continual lesson (plus practicals) for me. Passed some, failed some too. I think God is so gracious. There's no one who's able to give grace like this.
Thank you all for being such wonderful friends. Your acceptance, wackiness, willingness to give, smiles, hugs, little gifts, time, love and patience all roll into one mammoth blessing to me. Love you all! *starts playing the song "We Are Family"*
Have a great year ahead. :) We've had an amazing start but let's keep being humble and grow through the bulk of the year okay!