God: infallible

We were made to desire perfection. I see glimpses of it every day in the strangers I pass by and in the pretty things we create. These glimpses make us step in their direction. We pursue them in thought, first, second, and third. Sometimes with a long gaze too.
You, God, do not have mere glimpses of perfection, You are perfection. To have and to hold You is all every soul wishes for, whether we know it or not.
Count me blessed, that I know, and I pursue in kind manner that You have, You above all that I have come to love and know. We fit like jigsaw pieces with edge touching edge, uncontrived, with spaces none to overcome. There is no space. Nothing is in between, and it is what frees me.

thought on relationships

A girl should not manipulate a boy by displaying emotional breakdowns, expressing petty disapprovals, threatening with break-ups or issuing ultimatums, whining with charm and wearing too little, to an end of getting what she wants.
A boy should not manipulate a girl by sweet-talking, splurging on gifts, making demands in the name of love, and making empty promises, to an end of getting what he wants.
Because more often than not, our wants are selfish. They are only centred on a single person on the planet called I. They don't take into account the big picture. They have varying power to take away happiness from one or more people. They could cause irreversible damage.
A girl desires love and the intimacy that comes with love. She thinks she loves, because she loves passionately and regardless of flaw. But in loving passionately, she may fail to respect. She disrespects the boy when she does what she should not, when she disregards his feelings often a world of difference from hers. She must know, surely she must know, that love is finely girded with respect. Love falls headlong into nothing, falls apart to a disarray, when respect is frail or even absent.
She must consider the boy's situation, his person, his reputation, his heart, his life. If she does, she should further consider others who are linked to the relationship. She should think and act towards their best interests. She should seek wisdom, possess and wield it, for the goodness of all. She should have heart and believe the best in him. She should believe, not fear.

Today, I'll just talk about the girl. She needs to learn, or she'll never bloom.
I'll leave the boy alone for now.

You Never Walk Alone

It's a family club. :D

"There is a spiritual diet without which no Christian can be strong and healthy and fruitful. And that is a diet of the word of God."
John Piper

How much wisdom is in that statement. Though I don't know this man personally. He's an anointed servant of God whom I very much look up to and am mentored by through his books and teachings. There is such a reverence for God in him that I'd only learn to have.

Thank you Pastor John. You have taught me the one thing that's truly needed.

"Teach [me] to make the most of [my] time, so that [I] may grow in wisdom."
My prayer, quite often, is this. I'm just passing by, so I hope to make the most out of my time here loving people and letting them know that. Eventually so that they may know the love of our heavenly Father, whose love is an anchor through whatever difficulty of any magnitude. To have that in perspective, it's grave. But it's good.

the lion city

Cambodia teaches me to love my own country. It's funny how the affections for a foreign place could ignite a deeper wealth of emotions for where I was born and raised. There's a kind of pride that everyone possesses for their nation. It commends and honours the people, culture, government, laws and so on. And it gives honour to people of other nationalities as well. I believe that if we don't love our country, criticise and loathe our fellow countrymen, we can't begin to love people of other origins.
Loving Cambodia by praying for them, ministering to the locals and embracing the physical conditions, I questioned myself if I do that for Singapore. I should be doing the same, if not doubly so. Over the years, God made me see how essential Singapore is to me simply because I am Singaporean; my destiny is linked with hers. She is a beautiful city, and a representation of His power. I wanna love my country even more this year.

my bread

It was easier to have longer, isolated time with God when I was younger. I could go for extended afternoon runs and I'd worship, talk and pray. It became a very regular thing to the point when I'd run everyday. Running was my rendezvous with Him.
It still is. The regularity and quality of it however has taken a dip and I've known it for a while. Times when I'd reminisce, I'd cry. I think I've romanticised God to some extent, but all I can say is romance with God is as real a romance as any can get. I love Daddy, my Father.
I can either love Him only as much as I did, or more and more and more. This is my reminder from Pastor John Piper: He is my daily bread. I cannot go on without Him entering and surrounding my every morning, every night. Now that I'm older with possibly more to think of and accomplish, I want to strengthen this bond at all cost, not let it weaken.

Do not labour for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give to you. For on him God the Father has set his seal.” Then they said to him, “What must we do, to be doing the works of God?” Jesus answered them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent." -------- John 6:27-29