Sometimes I wonder if I'm abnormal - I ask all the introspective questions that sound really self-centred, self-absorbed, self-pitying, so, so, so very... small. But I genuinely feel like all the arrows are pointed at me. I feel stifled, and insignificant because I can't measure up.
And why do others measure up? Did they ever crumble like me? Why didn't they just crumble and stop the chase? Why did they eventually achieve what they thought they couldn't and didn't want in the first place?
Could I just be myself? Could I have my way? Could my way really be that far from God's way? Then why is your way nearer to God's way?
Help me understand and see, once again. Why am I in this race? Wait, which race am I in? Help me see... Father. Is this race the same race You told me to run?
