Love Song

First Love, You are number one in terms of position
Of all the attractions and ambitions I have
First Love, You are my motivation and start of each morning
And conclusion at the end of every day

You gave me breath and You're still giving breaths in our present day
How sweet and wonderful it is to finally put a finger on
The fact that You were the One
Who imagined and spoke me into being

Sweet Love, heavenly joy is mine on earth
Because You pursued me, and I found You
Sweet Love, there's none other of Your worth to me

My will in Yours and Yours mine
That's all that matters to me now
Hearts awakened and lives returning to
Where they belong
You, First Love, are theirs too
Till 'Sweet Love' they know and call You too

Precious Love, may I never take You for granted
May I only learn to love You more
As I grow to have the full measure of the knowledge of You
As I become more and more
Like You

Jesus I love You

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

None else can take Your place. There is no equal. I revisited the cross and the tomb as though I was ever there before and understood again what I was responsible for. Lord, thank You. I'll never know what it was like, to what lengths You went for me. It's beyond me, and I'll never know. But with what I have that You've given me, I give it back to You as a tribute. Yes, my life as a tribute to You, how absurd it even sounds.

Thank You for loving me.

I look up to you

She's like a mother to me when she tells me stories of her own experiences. I learn about the values she holds dear through the things she says and I appreciate the person that she is. She's a woman of beauty.

I pray this child will find her Father's arms. Open and guide the eyes of her heart to Him, until she knows that she's unfathomably loved, wanted and treasured by Him from the very beginning to eternity. In the almighty name of Jesus, amen.

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath
So we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live
I was made to love
I was made to know You
--- C.S Lewis Song, Brooke Fraser

My mind's a mass of thoughts, an open sea. What's prevailing amongst them all though?
I'm thinking of how I could read, inquire and meditate more and subsequently know and understand more about the times I live in. More. I feel gently nudged towards more. I feel an internal desire gently brewing, urging me, making me want more.
Maybe the lion in me is at long last awakening. I don't care for much anymore when compared to being all I can be for You, to seeing what You see, grasping a little more of what You think and feel and who exactly You are, to declaring and seeing Your total rule enforced on earth as it is in heaven.
I wanna see You
Wanna know You for You
Wanna burn, burn
Blaze for You

Paths

Running alongside each other...
I don't see that anymore. I tried to see it before, tried to make out where we were each running, the paths that we were taking. But what could be seen was a blurred vision, something somewhat impossible to decipher by a mere individual - human, too.
I then concluded that what God had already shown and spoken to me was enough. And faith was required for the walk. So I walked, and I became free, freer, from the expectations of others and having my own expectations.
Now all I see, Daddy... is none other than just You.
Everything literally fades out when my eyes are on You.
I believe, even if I don't see. I believe, without a doubt, that You have given me the best.
I believe we're going to fully glorify You in the grandest, highest, and most intimate of ways. You are my only path. And I rest in that You are his too.

I just pray that many more will walk this way for You are our destination.

Come now where no eye has seen
No ear has heard
No mind can conceive
Your Kingdom come
And forever reign

Dreams. They speak to me and give me perspective, insight and assurance as to what I am going through, what is still undealt with in me, or what I'm heading towards.

Take nothing for granted. We are being pursued by our Maker. He speaks to us in everything we experience. We are being divinely led and guided into a safe, glorious and perfect place. Every single time.

Conflict

Sometimes I wonder if I'm abnormal - I ask all the introspective questions that sound really self-centred, self-absorbed, self-pitying, so, so, so very... small. But I genuinely feel like all the arrows are pointed at me. I feel stifled, and insignificant because I can't measure up.
And why do others measure up? Did they ever crumble like me? Why didn't they just crumble and stop the chase? Why did they eventually achieve what they thought they couldn't and didn't want in the first place?
Could I just be myself? Could I have my way? Could my way really be that far from God's way? Then why is your way nearer to God's way?
Help me understand and see, once again. Why am I in this race? Wait, which race am I in? Help me see... Father. Is this race the same race You told me to run?